Is it still ok?

Is it normal to cry everyday?
Cry every single day because of the goddamn same reason...
Is it normal to get drunk and hope that sensation of drunkness never goes away?
Just because you don't wanna go back to reality.
Reality hurts.
My thoughts hurts.
Breathing hurts.
Everything hurts.
Where should I go now?
What should I listen?
I'm lost.
Totally lost, like I have never been before.
Here I stand, writing to no one.
Trying to feel relieved by getting it down on paper.
It doesn't work.